I know, I already wrote once today. Sue me.
I want to write again because I just need to. It's what I do when there's no one to really talk to about stuff. I'm not sure what I'm feeling really...I'm not sure if I'm just anxious about moving out and college, or sad because I can't help an unhappy friend, or just emotional from all of the above. Yeah, probably the last one. Or it's pms. Joy :)
Honestly I really am struggling this week with the fact that for a whole year I don't get to be with him. I know, boo-hoo it's a year instead of two, I still get to see him and text him...I know. But at the same time everything's completely different and I'm afraid it'll almost be harder to hang out with him because we can't act like we usually do-like we like each other. He's set apart now, I don't want to distract him from his mission at all, I just want him to focus on the Lord.
Right?
I'm so used to seeing him three or four times a week, it's really freaking me out to realize I'll only see him like once every three weeks once I move away, unless he drives up sometimes to see me. He's one of my best friends, and I guess I'm just afraid of losing him or not being the same a year from now. I don't know. I just have been upset about that and I think I'm supposed to be honest on here. I already miss him so much.
I won't complain about it again, I promise. I just needed someone to talk to about it, and comveniently my blog was here to hear. :) I'll write something happier tomorrow, I promise.
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