Thoughts

  It's finally hit me that I will be joining the "real world" soon where I have to worry about stuff like car insurance and renter's insurance and realizing that I won't ever be "going home to visit mom and dad for the weekend" again. Not in the same way. I'm not scared or dreading it, but it definitely is making me get my priorities straight and start taking some real responsibility for things. And maybe a little bit of reminiscing. So today is just a list of thoughts. And, unbelievably, they aren't even all wedding related! Haha.

• I want to write a book. I love writing, especially creative writing, and I would absolutely love to write an entire novel from my own head. I've wanted to do that for a loooong time.
• For the first time I'm understanding why paying tithing takes faith, and I'm gaining a real testimony of why it's so important, and how it is blessing me to put it first, no matter what.
• Sometimes it's hard realizing that in some ways, Justin is filling my parent's shoes now - providing for me, taking care of me when I'm sick, and becoming the priesthood leader of my soon-to-be family. Of course he's not replacing my parents, but he is definitely taking on some of their responsibility for me. 
• The first thing I want when I finally own a home is a piano. Oh, how I miss playing the piano!
• Anyone can change. Never, ever give up on someone. Because they have just as much of a right, and an ability, to change as you do. By limiting others, you are only limiting yourself. 
• I am so excited to meet and hold my new little niece or nephew in October, and for Jade and Cord to become parents! 
• I need to start keeping a journal. Not just a blog.
• DISNEYWORLD. SOOOOOOOON.
• Living under dinosaurs for the past 2 years has taught me the meaning of patience. And I will be able to greatly appreciate my new place where there aren't loud crazy people living around me. 
• I sound like an old person.
• I miss the stress-free years of being a little kid. I miss easy homework, playing outside, being fed delicious meals every night without even thinking about the cost or effort behind them, getting new toys and games and vacations and all that was required of me was a simple "thank you." I miss being surrounded all the time by people that you never doubted loved you and cared about you more than anything. 
• But I've finally figured out there are things about being an adult that are better than being a kid - like growing closer to my siblings, and being friends out of choice, not because we have to. My parents are not just my care-givers, but my biggest fan club, my support system, and my best friends. I'm so thankful for friends that stay throughout the years and are there for everything, the good and the bad. I finally have a real testimony of this gospel, not the simple faith of a child. I am able to feel more deeply, to understand more fully, and to recognize things for what they really are, not just their face value. 
• I miss Arthur. And Little House on the Prairie.
• Have I mentioned Disneyworld yet?
• I really hope that it's not still 40 degrees on May 11.
• I love puppies. I am SO EXCITED for the day I FINALLY get to buy a puppy!!
• I can't believe I've been in college for 3 years already. I feel like I graduated high school yesterday!
• I'm going to miss my little brother like crazy while he's on his mission for 2 years. We don't always get along and frankly, he can drive me crazy sometimes, but I have so many good memories with him and I love him to pieces. He better remember to write me back sometimes.
• Learning to longboard is the greatest thing that has ever come of one of my previous relationships. Haha. Just kidding. Maybe. 
• You are never too old to build a blanket fort. EVER.
• There is a huge difference between "lose" and "loose." Really people?
• #hashtagsdontworkonfacebooksostopusingthemthere
• Yes. I did buy me and Justin matching sweat jackets for our wedding that say "Judd" on the back with the number 13, since that's the year we're getting married. And I am REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THEM.
• Last but not least: I'm really excited for my honeymoon. That's in Disneyworld. That's only 29 days away. asodijakdcvnaewifjadlkvjaklsjer984vhakvj98aev. Excitement.